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[Sep. 10th, 2004|11:52 am]
Autumn Rain
I know my entries and short but not so sweet these days, I am sorry.
I come to this internet cafe and read emails and leave.
I am now being tested for lung cancer (long story, and i don't have a history of smoking) as well as cervical (this is common and treated easily with laser therapy) but bleh...
I must admit...when all this gets sorted out, I am ready for that roadtrip to Arizona....
I miss and embrace the little things in life.
Coffee is good.
I am now living in limbo as i can't seem to communicate with the loan sharks about my student loan, despite the fact that i got into my school of choice...
so now i am thinking work, ANY work will do...i am beyond broke, but not broken. Infact, in the wake of all this crap, i feel strangely strong.

[User Picture]From: skygypsy
2004-09-10 09:11 am (UTC)
ohh noooo, how stressful!!

blessings and light!!
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From: crushablepink
2004-09-10 10:00 am (UTC)
it seems my cervical cancer has come back; "easily treatable" isnt eexactly right- its very emotionally draining to be mutilated in such a fashion, even if it *is* for your betterment.

ash and i are coming to toronto in early october- we want to see you.
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[User Picture]From: heyokah
2004-09-11 01:18 pm (UTC)
I understand.
I'm just at a pressure point where i have to "pick" which battle to fight first...
I now have a hacking lung/throat infection....
I would love a visit.
My surgery is scheduled for sept 20th but i'm scared and uncertain.
I've been emotional lately and learning that i need to put up healthy boundaries...so much drains me...
I am afraid that if i have surgery, i am making a terrible choice..but there is so much pressure...family gets angry with me and i really feel overwhelmed. My nerves are shot...i don't remember ever feeling this stressed in my life.
If you can email me, i will email you back...about the cervical cancer....
blessings and love,
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From: crushablepink
2004-09-11 04:40 pm (UTC)
i think you need to do the surgery, and then treat it spiritually after, for the healing aspect. its vital you balance medicine with spirit. you can email me crushablepink at aol dot com, anytime. xox
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From: crushablepink
2004-09-30 06:38 am (UTC)
can you email me, b/c i dont have your address... we're going to be in toronto over thanksgiving and would like to have a meal together or something...
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From: trinblackbird
2004-09-10 04:47 pm (UTC)
Many strong blessings of
love, and healing to you.

Thinking of you,
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[User Picture]From: earlofgrey
2004-09-10 07:50 pm (UTC)
i miss you, lady. i'm thinking of you.
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[User Picture]From: wingsinthewater
2004-11-11 02:58 am (UTC)
I miss you too! I hope you're doing well.
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